2009

Aiming for something different.....................wait and see

Ciara

I guess this is how i am feelin yo

2008

Ok 14 days into the year now I have decided what it is I want to strive for, call it a little late but oh well. I have sort of created my "2008 Bucket List", yes i know i copied that. These are things I have planned or want to do before 2008 kicks the bucket. I would like to:

-spend more time with my youngest sister. I know she has the potential to be more creative and interactive and this year I plan to bring that out of her.

-get a hold on most of my bills and bring them down to a more comfortable state.

-become a little more vulnerable, instead of being an ice prince and rigid, I have been working towards this and I can see the light but it is still very dim.

-buy a new car (had to put something materialistic in there it just would not be me if i did not)

-to see another one of the World Wonders. Some of the ones I have yet to see are the Colosseum, Taj Mahal, Itaipu Dam, and Stonehenge. Which will be next?

-experience a three vacation year; cruise In the Caribbean, relax in San Juan, and partying and shopping in Beijing.

-maintain the same group of wonderful friends I have:
the eight exemption friend
the sweet but clueless friend
the so called reformed fighter
the first time pregnant friend
the non chalant attempting to get it together friend
the everything questionable friend
the let love pass them by for business friend
the finally i got a real job friend
the white soul sister now just white friend
the back bitch bootz friend
the flo rida low rida friend
the white woman friend


so we will see how this goes....................

Thoughts

It would take all day
to tell you
I thank you
4 all the things you brought in y like
Peace joy happiness
Longed for
Stamina to be great
Gone for
Many years to try to
Handle up
On the most wonderful
Gift one could give
Peace joy happiness
Longed for
Sexy fame materials
Wanted by
You me they we
Sometimes lie next to
Those things we can not but
But peace joy happiness
Is longed for
If you let me take them from you
I am not a fool
I guess I finally see
You never wanted them
But to me………
Its everything
Cant wait for your ears to join

AFTER YESTERDAY THIS IS WHAT I WANTED TO TO EVERYONE WHO CROSSED ME

Starting off Right!!!!!

My lil sis!!!!!!!!

Flo Rida - Low [from Step Up 2 The Streets/ Mail On Sunday]

This is my new shyt!!!!!

Whats age got to do with it?

Funny thing happened I was getting on a shuttle that was to take me and some colleagues to a meeting. The shuttle was completely full and people were steadily and actively trying to get on. The bus driver politely starting asking patrons to get off and board the next one. An elderly man shouted out “I am 78 years old” , what this had to do with anything I don’t know. I love and respect my elders nut enough is enough. That bus was full now get on another one you old gezer I see this happening a lot it used to be with race now its with age. Next time someone says something to my I will say “I am 26 years old”.

Spawns of the Devil

While in Tampa we went to Busch Gardens Theme Park. Anyone who knows me gets the fact that I an amusement park freak. We were having a god time once we got there until we boarded our first ride. Originally it was just to be me and my little sister but seeing that I am the hip cousin everyone wanted to hang with me, but who wouldn’t. We all wanted to ride the coaster together so I asked everyone to wait until we were near the front of the line before we started letting people skip in line. We as usual teenagers never listen and they decided to do whatever they wanted to do. Ok now as my and my sister are bonding and I hear a little commotion to my surprise it was my people. They were cussing screaming and carrying on, I was totally embarrassed. I must have jumped over rails to tell them to tone it down. I love them dearly but damn this was unacceptable, do I blame the parents do I blame them. I blame everyone!!!!!!
I hope and ray to God my little sister surpasses that stage in her life because I don’t think she will make it through alive……….

Just catching you up

Whew what a holiday weekend got a lot of catching up to do. My thanksgiving break started with dinner at a friends house then a night of partying. This particular night I felt like I was B from 2002 when I was legal to drink in the club. I got lasered and did not fall asleep until 6am Friday morning. So decided to take my travels to sunny Tampa, Florida to visit my family as they vacationed there. As always it is wonderful to hang with my yongest sister, she is eleven. My mom was there and although it is weird, seeing as though we did not have the best relationship growing up, I believe she is trying a little bit to be more involved. My one night in Tampa reminded me so much of growing up. Seeing the interaction between my mom and my sister is leading me to believe that they will have the same relationship as the rest of us do, somewhat disconnected. Kind of sad but we all turned out prominent and successful so maybe this was my mom’s master plan all along. One thing that is different about they way I treat my sister is the fact I express love and gratitude. When I was growing up love was not expressed it was implied. I am convinced that this is the reason why it has taken me 26 years to now realize that I can love and be loved along with expressing my feelings and conveying them thoroughly. I want my sister to be able to understand genuine love and be able to practice it without being binded by the unknown.